Paper is more patient than people

She is you, me and everyone else. She is every teenager brought up in every family. She is insecure, curious, confused, self-righteous, takes herself too seriously, yearns for acceptance, hates everyone one day and loves them the next, is angry before she understands why someone is different from her, she is every single girl. But she is amazing. She is amazing because she speaks about her dreams. She speaks about them to her dearest friend, Kitty. She loves to talk to Kitty, about herself, her every dream and emotion, her thoughts and feelings, her love and life, her hatred and pity. She finds in her diary her only true confidant, self-reflecting and self-indulging at times. She is amazing because she endured everything that came her way with the innocence of a child and the maturity of an adult, in all senses a teenager. My heart goes out to her and her honesty to her diary, when many of us shudder to be honest to our own selves. I salute her because she found the courage to write down her every thought. I am grateful to her because she gives me the inspiration to be comfortable with myself. I wish she had lived longer, I wish she had seen a lot more in her life, I wish she had lived a fuller life and I wish she had written about it all. I can only imagine how beautiful a life she would have lived. I can only imagine how much richer my life would have been if I could read about it. I miss Anne Frank. I miss a girl I have nothing in common with except that she is a girl, a girl who is as unlike me as possible, a different country, a different upbringing, a different era in history, a girl caught up in the worst mass crime the world has ever seen. I miss her as a girl, as a companion, as a reflection, as a thought and as a life. And yes I agree with her, paper truly is more patient than people.

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Driver said…
A link to Anne Frank would have been great for ignorants like me. :p
December 11, 2006 at 11:20:00 AM PST
diyadear said…
good post. i like Anne Frank's diary lots too..
January 27, 2007 at 8:33:00 PM PST
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